I wanted a happy picture for a rather unhappy topic.
If you've been following my blog then you'll know it has been a tough year and a half or so (when you add in my entire pregnancy and the last 8 months since Lyra's birth.) A few readers messaged me when I wrote this post a few months ago saying they were concerned I had PPD. As someone who has had depression before I didn't think so. I didn't have the same symptoms as when I had depression a few years ago so how could it be PPD?
But I started to read stories of moms with PPD and I realized I had symptoms that didn't match my previous experience with depression but absolutely matched a diagnosis of postpartum depression, most notably, rage, just pure rage, and how freaky is that? I reached out to friends, I contacted my doctor and therapist in San Diego, and I'm now getting treated.
I'm still finding it hard to use my brain cohesively, which means my blogging here will be light to non-existent for a while.
And before you equate sailing-with-an-infant=you're gonna get PPD, please know that while I'm the first person to say that it has been freaking tough to be out cruising with a new baby, there are many additional factors going on in my life right now that I don't blog about and won't share publicly. Those factors are absolutely the largest stressors in my life and of course, the ones I can't write about out of respect for the privacy of the other people in my extended family who don't happily blog about their lives. Let's just say that I've been dealing with two of the items on this list during the last six months, and they would have happened had we been sailing or not.
If you are a mom and think you may have PPD, please call your doctor and talk to them about your concerns. Read up on the signs of PPD, in particular this one, which was my biggest clue to call my own doctor. This website, Postpartum Progress, has been incredibly helpful. Lastly, if you are breastfeeding and worried that you'll have to stop breastfeeding in order to take meds (and you don't want to stop), take heart, there is much info out there to explain that breastfeeding and antidepressants are not contraindicated. Helpful link here and here.
I'll be back when my brain works.